Over the course of the football season, I have lamented on a regular basis how it hurts to play seven points and leave 27 points on the bench on any given Sunday, at any given spot.
I also think that football seems to hurt more than baseball in that the volume of games makes it so that the impact of a lost performance gets lost in the stat shuffle.
Not to mention aside from head-to-head baseball leagues, a format eschewed by most fantasy baseball players, accordingly looks at stats as a whole rather than under a one-on-one microscope for most of us.
As an example, over the summer I had Raul Ibanez sitting on the bench May 22-26 of the 2013 season when he hit five homers and knocked in 12. But, well, I had to look it up.
Which brings me to the conundrum of last Sunday's Fantasy Sports Trade Association (FSTA) game where Anthony Perri of Fantistics beat Todd and me for a title.
Now, I am not writing this to second guess Z at all: he made vitually all the moves for the team over the season, though we did discuss the free agent selections and roster setting week-to-week after drafting together in Chicago last summer.
Furthermore, three of our first four selections were Ray Rice, Maurice Jones-Drew and Stevan Ridley, and we still ran up ten wins, the best record, and made it as far as the championship game, which is no small success.
Similarly, we sat Steven Jackson and played Ray Rice (my impulse), although in thinking about RB's, and touches, we probably should have sat Torrey Smith. Along with that, Smith's QB was ailing, so the chances of the ball getting to him often were slim. That difference would have been worth another 12 points.
On the other side of the fence, Anthony picked up the Browns defense, and played them, sitting the Panthers squad that helped get him to the finals in lieu of the Clevelanders who were facing the offensively erratic Jets.
Had Anthony stuck with the Carolina D, that too would have been worth 14 points as the team ran roughshod over Drew Brees.
Not that it would have mattered over the long haul: Anthony still would have beaten us with or without those moves, but, we would have maxed out our point totals for the game (and I guess maybe I would have felt better?).
I do think it is easier, though, or at least seems more rational to sit a wide receiver when the weather is very cold and windy, or to sit a given skills player against a lineup that is particularly harsh on those skills, but just as I would have a hard time sitting Cam Newton, so should we have a hard time sitting Matt Ryan, or the Panthers defensive unit.
Still, I have done most of the above with much more thought than not sitting just about any fantasy baseball player not named Joe Saunders pitching in Texas.
But, on this eve of yet another year in my arc of a life, I want to reinforce a promise I made with myself early on in my fantasy sports life: second guessing.
For, what I decided was that I could not second guess moves I made in life, like relationships and jobs and the kind of car I bought, but, I could do it all I wanted in the fantasy world.
I think I am going to give up on that one, too.